What will I say of today | Motherhood Moments

What will I say of today?

Will I look at all I didn’t accomplish? Will I look at how possibly, just maybe I taught my son how to be intentional in loving others. In stopping for the one. Will I out myself that I didn’t book a new client? Will I share how my heart came alive to His promises to me in sitting with my son in his room watching him play? Will I stack up all my accomplishments next to someone else doing a similar thing with there life to determine if I succeeded today?

As a small business owner of three businesses AND being a single mama who has been the sole provider for our little family for the past year I know the tension of it all. The breaking. The undoing. The ache. The figuring out how to keep everyone happy and not failing that which is most important. I know the ache of wondering did I do enough today? Could I have done better?

There will always be more that I could have done, but did I love well today? Did I teach my son how to love well? Did I love those around me well.

Those are the moments that will echo through eternity. 

That does not mean I ignore or let go of my responsibilities but it means I must stay rooted and grounded to what every day is all about. So that when asked how my day was I can peacefully say it was good. Not because of achievements, not because of sales. But because I learned more of what it means to love. Sacrificial love. The lay it all down. The surrendering all of myself, letting go of my own expectations and coming into alignment with what He asks of me. Which is simply to love. These motherhood moments are so good for my heart. Intentionally capturing moments when I feel like my heart could burst and I am doing nothing but just being with my son. For an Enneagram type 3 (achiever) this is saying something. I do not naturally sit down and do “nothing”. I don’t like watching TV, I don’t like sleeping in, I despise naps…you get the picture. It’s not naturally in me. HOWEVER when you run three businesses and are a mama you MUST learn to rest but not quit. Because if I quit the whole ship sinks.

It’s these sweet moments that I want to print out and let my son discover when He gets older of just pure honest joy from just BEING with family. These moments are the moments that have brought me life. Finding him in the bathroom pretend snoring with eyes closed as his hint that he is tired and ready for nap time. It’s these moments I choose to slow down for.

Because at the end of all this only one question will be asked. Did you learn to love? 

Today I can say that I have. This lil ball of joy reminds me everyday.

Slow down, take a breath. The next moment will not be too much to carry. Just focus on right here and now. And spread the love.